Sunday, October 5, 2008

Dear diary, today was...

Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock, Rock-crash, rock-bang, buzzzzzzzz....

Slowly I am more and more fascinated with the sounds that appear in the night time.
Like the faintest ticking of an old alarm clock, or the sounds that the washing machine makes.
During the day your mind is just so busy that you don't take the time to just listen. Not to music, or the television.. But life. People say "Life should have a soundtrack". Well, it does...

I like it here, its calm and there aren't spiders, or leaves and dirt covering the hard, cold cement "bedroom floor". No high-traffic young people, or screaming babies.

Tick-tock, Tick-tock... don't these things seem to get louder and louder? Lol its almost like the guy that invented them was kind of a jerk and decided to make them gradually get louder until you just think you're going insane.. Probably, lol.

It was a good day. Church, worship was fun.. I hung out with mike, I miss him, although my lifestyle has changed. That makes things hard. People grow and change.. i'm not better than him, just making better choices in life. He's a great guy though, i love him like a brother. I wish he would start doing better things with himself. Watched some LOST. Uh-May-Zingg!

I kissed that Kolly girl a whole lot today. That was great, I havent dont that enough lately. She seems to be getting more beautiful as time goes on. Have I mentioned that I love her? yeah, i do.
She has gorgeous eyes, if you ever get a chance.. just look at them, alot.. They speak to you. she doesn't need words, although she has amazing words, her eyes are just so expressive and beautiful. They are such a rare color of Hazel Green, Golden mixed.. I love them/her. <3

I need to write more music. i feel like, if I dont write a certain amount of great songs within a certain amount of time, I can't consider myself a musican. I feel like really i'm not that great. People say I am, i think its just the greatness and the drive to attain perfection inside of me trying to get out, when I realize that i'm not where i want to be i get discouraged. The compliments make me feel good. It helps me to keep playing and writing and trying.

anyways.. thats enough for tonight. I have school in the morning.

1 comment:

Kolleen said...

I know what you mean, sometimes its trippy what listening to things can do.
like the washer seems to be speeding up and slowing down to me...

I agree, you haven't kissed me enough.
kolly needs more.

I love the songs you have been writing lately, I really love your talents and that when you do write, it is amazing.
I think you are the most talented man I know.

It's loud in the house.

i miss you